I have to challenge myself to blog more consistently but most importantly put out content that is engaging and thought provoking. There is nothing like working on being consistent and letting ideas build up in your mind before escaping to the keyboard.
There was something holding me back because I felt a spirit of doom around me for the greater part of 2017. I was in a rut. Now don’t get me wrong I still produced some content but the mindset around what I was writing was more fluff than substance. I needed to rethink my strategy, my purpose, and ultimately decided I needed to change my narrative.
How can I be productive if I’m not operating in my true capacity of creativity? How can I be better at what I do and what I create if I’m not taking the time to inventory my surroundings and remove what is not benefiting me. Even when I began eliminating things and people out of life, I felt stuck. I had to do something.
The first thing I decided to do was feed my soul. It’s not about going to church and becoming super religious, I simply began to tell myself yes while telling others no. As an individual you cannot give so much of yourself to others because then you will have nothing left inside. I often think that I could be doing more with my time, but the reality is that I extend myself and when I’m feeling the stress of overextending myself, I feel my internal shelf begin to crack. Feeding my soul has resulted in selectively turning down invitations for outings and not participating due to my level of discomfort. Working through my disappointments and accepting that life is often interrupted. I began to rely more on my intuition to guide me. I admit to myself when I am not okay. I process my feelings around not being okay, and once I deal with my emotions I resurface and continue to live my life.
I have become more in touch with my own vibrations that I have taken things a step further to recognize who is for me and genuinely wants to be in my life without making excuses for their periodic absences (GHOSTING as it is now called). I am guilty of wanting something so badly to point of distraction, but being caught up in the rapture of the unfamiliar sends you swinging. I have had to listen to how my mind vibrates in conversations, how my body reacts to the day to day grind of living, and the calmness of my soul when I speak and immerse myself into my surroundings.
So my advice to you on becoming a better version of yourself means that you have to let go of the control and push through life organically. It is hard to shake things off that make you tick both in a good and bad way, but the shake-up is necessary. I needed a cleansing of my spirit so I jumped out of my comfort zone and it’s a battle each day.
Another step I took into changing my narrative has been listening to how I self-talk and encourage myself. How you speak to yourself reminds you of who you are and pushes you to where you want to be.
I put it out into the atmosphere that I was letting go! Letting go of the hurt and walking away from things that no longer feed my soul. At some of my lowest points I have felt bogged down by embarrassment and bad choices. The spirit of defeat was surrounding me. Some of the bad things that I have endured in my life were not my choices, but I was on the back end of mistreatment. So I made up in my mind that in order to flourish, I decided to not be a victim of my circumstances. The reality is that everyone does not have the same heart as you, so you have to take care of yourself first before you can take care of anyone else. Sadly, everyone is going to hurt you and give you conflicting memories in your life, but the same people that hurt you play an intricate role in your development and identity.
Every since I have made the decision to inhale positivity and embrace the unknown, I find my spirit lighter. I even did a ceremonial smudging of my home. I had always heard that sage and meditation clears the atmosphere of impurities so I began speaking that into the atmosphere which prompted a really great friend of mine to send me a ceremonial kit. See even in the small things I am grateful because she did not have to do it, but like minded spirits communicate near and far.
In life you will not have all of the answers. In life you will continue to make mistakes that alter your perceptions, but you will continue to live and grow through those choices. There is no formula to being the best version of yourself other than to wake up each day and decide you are going to better than you were the day before.
You only have one life to live. This is not an ode to YOLO (You Only Live Once) but present moment reality check. The best version of you is right around the corner so surround yourself with ideas and people that feed your spirit, encourage your growth, and create the life you want to live.
There are risks involved in everything that you do so take care of your inner-self and watch how changing your thought process begin to flourish in the way that you live. I am operating in the best version of myself and want to encourage others to do the same.
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